"Hier stehe ich. Ich kann nicht anders. Gott helfe mir. Amen."

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

21 - human nature

lamentations 3:40-42
"let us examine our ways and test them, and let us return to the Lord. let us lift up our hearts and our hands to God in heaven, and say: we have sinned and rebelled and You have not forgiven."

3:39
"why should any living man complain when punished for his sins?"

humans do many ridiculous things. one of them, i realized, is that we always tend to eat our words. meaning, we make many mistakes, even when someone or something warns us in advance not to do it - and usually, they are always right in the end. and we may complain and moan about the circumstances after the consequences come about, and we always seek solace and forgivenss at the end, even when its too late.

real life example: whenever my mom tells me to do something, or not to do something, i always think that my way is better. she always tells me to wear a thicker jacket before i go out, but i always think that she's wrong and that it wont be too cold. almost 110% of the time, she is right, and i have to eat my words and bear the cold. i dont let her know that she was right, but i definitely have to live out the conesequences of my actions and my inability to heed her warning.

extreme example: in lamentations, the israelites were experiencing the wrath of God in their lives. the sins of their forefathers and them were being lived out. people were oppressed by their enemies, and God was giving them no freedom. God let their enemies have free reign over them.

and we see how the israelites cry out to God, even sometimes crying "foul!". but this was a direct response to their inability to repent of their ways and acknowledge God.

in some ways, i read this and i totally dont feel bad for them. they deserve it! but i look at my own life and realize how many times i have cried "foul!" and became bitter.

the right response is to do what the speaker in lamentations did and repent and acknowledge that hope is found in the Lord. and his mercies are new every morning (3:23). here, we see that even in the midst of utter destruction, the Lord is merciful and loving in his wrath - every hardship eventually leads us to repentence and back to God. just as a child finds comfort in the arms of a mother when she has scolded them for doing something bad, we too, find comfort in the loving arms of out Father in the midst of our hardship. hardship and trails almost always brings us back to God, or at least an acknowledgment of Him.

and ultimate mercy is found at the cross of Jesus. the old testament vicious cycle we always read of blessing > sin > repentence > blessing > sin by the israelites was finally broken through the wrath poured out upon Jesus for our wrongdoing. no longer did God have to pour out his anger of sin upon His people - He laid it all upon Jesus.

Jesus died for our human nature.



Sunday, December 6, 2009

20 - hello self. this is a note to you.

note to self: 10/6/09

1. buy christmas gifts for fam and friends(?)
2. PUT IN NEW GUITAR STRINGSSSS
3. get some bass strings
4. finish reading 'death by love'...
5. sign up for mma classes! (five points, fighthouse?)
6. write next newsletter!
7. read jack london
8. video blogging?

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

19 - the weeping prophet

i finally(!) finished the book of jeremiah. and throughout it, i can see why people called him the, "weeping prophet".

this guy was so faithful to the words of God and faithfully spoke them. but he lived in a time of chaos and tumultuous wartime, and so physically, mentally, and spiritually, he mustve been drained.

he spoke about repentance again and again to the jews and the kings, but again and again, they rejected his words and merely used him as a way to divert the wrath of God by keeping him with them wherever they went. theres even one crazy scene where the king listened to each line of the words of jeremiah, and the king would cut off the scroll and place it in the fire, one by one. other false prophets came during jeremiah's time and delivered a message of peace and prosperity, but they were quickly struck down by God. jeremiah, continued to preach repentence and a call from God to return to Him. and ultimately, jeremiah's message was one of love - he loved his people and longed to see them return to Him so he gave these prophecies of repentance. this is what was needed at the time.

but noone really listened. no one really cared except the jeremiah's only disciples, baruch and seraiah.

one would imagine, had they been in jeremiah's shoes, if they would just give up and run away or something. but not jeremiah. he continued to preach faithfully and gave piercing, convicting words to the people in the one of the most hardest times for the jewish people.

it may not be a glamorous life jeremiah's lived but it was one of integrity and grit and perseverance that really captivates me. although jeremiah didnt live a pleasant and popular life, he lived one that only sought after the approval of an audience of one - God.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

18 - the confession of the blind man

john 9 depicts a man, blind from birth, receiving sight from Jesus on the sabbath, and being questioned.

his parents were so afraid of the jewish leaders, that they did not even try to answer the prosecuting questions, but rather, the parents deferred them to their very own son.

but this son was not afraid. in fact, he was almost insulted by their incompetence and was so matter of fact with them.

v24 - the pharisees say to him, "give glory to God! we know that this man is a sinner"
v25 - the man answers them, i am not sure if He(Jesus) is a sinner, but one thing i do know, i was blind, but now i see.
v26 - the pharisees still are stubborn and hardened in their hearts and so ask him again, how did He do this to you?
v28, 29 - the pharisees defy Jesus's authority and say legalistically, we are disciples of moses, but you are a disciple of Him. we know that God spoke to moses, but for this man, we do not know where he comes from.
v30 - the man, now aware of the hypocrisy and unable to disregard his miraculous experience declares, "what an amazing thing! he has opened my eyes and yet you say that you dont know where he comes from."
v31-33 - the man, is now coming to the realization that Jesus is in fact, the Christ - "we know that God does not listen to sinners, but if anyone is a worshipper of God and does His will, God listens to Him. never since the world began has it been heard that anyone opened the eyes of a man born blind. if this man were not from God, he could do nothing."

and having been cast out of the place, Jesus finds this man, and asks him:
v36 - "do you believe in the Son of Man?"

and finally, the blind man, now able to see, replies,

"Lord, i believe". and he worshiped Him.

Oh, how i long to be like this blind man. being almost forsaken by his parents to stand the questioning of the authorities, pressed about his experience with Jesus, he never wavered in his testimony about Him. although he didn't have a full understanding and confession in His heart that Jesus was the Christ when the questioning started, through the trials and tribulations and questioning that the pharisees placed upon him, by the end of it, the man was able to come to a full realization and conclude that Jesus is the Christ. and he worshiped Him.

once blind, now able to see. stood the trial unwavering his devotion to telling the truth as it is, and through it, became a believer. now, a worshiper.

in life, through the trials and tribulations, we may waver in our devotion and faith in God. but we must not forget. we must not dumb down the facts. we need the hardships in order to come to a fuller realization that Jesus is our Lord and Savior. and ultimately, it is through these experiences that we will ultimately worship Him.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

17 - well if He did it then i guess...

  • "And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone" (Matthew 14:23).
  • "And when it was day, he departed and went into a desolate place" (Luke 4:42).
  • "But he would withdraw to desolate places and pray" (Luke 5:16).
  • "In these days he went out to the mountain to pray, and all night he continued in prayer to God" (Luke 6:12).
  • "He took with him Peter and John and James and went up on the mountain to pray" (Luke 9:28).
  • "He departed and went out to a desolate place, and there he prayed" (Mark 1:35).
  • "He went up on the mountain to pray" (Mark 6:46).
i guess i should go up the mountain and pray. off to bear mountain! hahah

Friday, October 23, 2009

something to get back to part deux

oswald chambers never gets old!

How are we going to get a life that has no lust, no self-interest, and is not sensitive to the ridicule of others? How will we have the type of love that "is kind . . . is not provoked, [and] thinks no evil"? ( 1 Corinthians 13:4-5 ). The only way is by allowing nothing of the old life to remain, and by having only simple, perfect trust in God— such a trust that we no longer want God’s blessings, but only want God Himself. Have we come to the point where God can withdraw His blessings from us without our trust in Him being affected? Once we truly see God at work, we will never be concerned again about the things that happen, because we are actually trusting in our Father in heaven, whom the world cannot see.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

something to get back to

October 22, 2009
The Witness of the Spirit
The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit . . . —Romans 8:16

We are in danger of getting into a bargaining spirit with God when we come to Him— we want the witness of the Spirit before we have done what God tells us to do.

Why doesn’t God reveal Himself to you? He cannot. It is not that He will not, but He cannot, because you are in the way as long as you won’t abandon yourself to Him in total surrender. Yet once you do, immediately God witnesses to Himself— He cannot witness to you, but He instantly witnesses to His own nature in you. If you received the witness of the Spirit before the reality and truth that comes from obedience, it would simply result in sentimental emotion. But when you act on the basis of redemption, and stop the disrespectfulness of debating with God, He immediately gives His witness. As soon as you abandon your own reasoning and arguing, God witnesses to what He has done, and you are amazed at your total disrespect in having kept Him waiting. If you are debating as to whether or not God can deliver from sin, then either let Him do it or tell Him that He cannot. Do not quote this or that person to Him. Simply obey Matthew 11:28 , "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden . . . ." Come, if you are weary, and ask, if you know you are evil (see Luke 11:9-13 ).

The Spirit of God witnesses to the redemption of our Lord, and to nothing else. He cannot witness to our reason. We are inclined to mistake the simplicity that comes from our natural commonsense decisions for the witness of the Spirit, but the Spirit witnesses only to His own nature, and to the work of redemption, never to our reason. If we are trying to make Him witness to our reason, it is no wonder that we are in darkness and uncertainty. Throw it all overboard, trust in Him, and He will give you the witness of the Spirit.