breaking in order to build

"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose."

Romans 8:28

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I am getting absolutely destroyed/humbled this week. And it still isn't over.

This verse keeps popping into my life/mind/soul these days and I can't rest in it enough. But my soul is heavy and my heart is frail.

God is wrecking me. Absolutely ruining me. Tonight, He revealed to me the deeply rooted sin of pride in my life.

Other days, He revealed how poor my stewardship is.

On another day, I saw how I talk a powerful game, but I walk so feebly.

He showed me/is showing me my hypocrisy.

And I thank Him for it. I am thanking Him in faith knowing that this is good for me. My troubles and struggles and His disciplining me is exactly the remedy my souls needs right now.

Lord, do whatever You need to do, to teach me Your ways. Keep breaking me, if need be. I confess though God, it's so hard. I don't like it. but I receive it in faith, knowing that Your love never fails. Your love is not lost in the midst of Your discipline.