13 - WOE IS ME
taken from my xanga circa oct 3 2006:
before i start, i wanna say, i like school. i met some awesome people here and its a lot of fun, and i dont intend to drop out anytime soon, BUT......
im sitting in the library writing my article for the school newspaper (yes, i am in the school newspaper. heehee im a nerd and i love it)and i realize how much i loathe school.
good gosh man. im a junior now and time seems to go by faster and faster, yet a part of me wants this to blaze even quicker. and yes, ive heard all the mumbo jumbo about how college are the best years of your life. and yes they ARE....but OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL.
let's face it. let's be frank. let's be REAL. geneseo is a bubble. ive said this time and time again, and i say it now. GENESEO or is a BUBBLE. the more and more i experience life here, the more i realize that a lot of people here will only matter in the 4 small years i have here. and its unfortunate, but at the same time its something im learning to accept. college in general is an anomoly in that, you see these people MORE often than you would outside of college and you eat drink sleep college and work and papers, and you perpetually see teh same faces...etc.
and i talked about it recently, and i realized there is such a bigger world out there and so much more to do and see and experience. and after i considered what i would do AFTER college, geneseo just seemed like such a smaller and smaller place.
maybe this rule doenst apply to people that commute to school, like NYU for instance, but for geneseo. it applies all too well.
im really tired of school and geneseo as a whole. i want out. and thank goodness for this fall break.
im sitting in the library writing my article for the school newspaper (yes, i am in the school newspaper. heehee im a nerd and i love it)and i realize how much i loathe school.
good gosh man. im a junior now and time seems to go by faster and faster, yet a part of me wants this to blaze even quicker. and yes, ive heard all the mumbo jumbo about how college are the best years of your life. and yes they ARE....but OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL.
let's face it. let's be frank. let's be REAL. geneseo is a bubble. ive said this time and time again, and i say it now. GENESEO or
and i talked about it recently, and i realized there is such a bigger world out there and so much more to do and see and experience. and after i considered what i would do AFTER college, geneseo just seemed like such a smaller and smaller place.
maybe this rule doenst apply to people that commute to school, like NYU for instance, but for geneseo. it applies all too well.
im really tired of school and geneseo as a whole. i want out. and thank goodness for this fall break.
OH...if i could travel back in time, i would go to this "sokin" or "david" or whatever you want to call me and say:
"LISTEN! college IS such a precious time!! dont waste it! take it slow and easy, SAVOR every moment you have with your friends because listen kiddo, life just gets harder after you leave this place. yes, its a bubble. yes, it is like you said it - geneseo really is a fabrication of what the real world is like out there...but let me tell ya, i would MUCH rather be in that bubble a little while longer. stop and smell the roses. and then take a step back and smell the roses you missed. stop trying to blaze through life. dont waste this moment..."
so yeah. but at the same time, i feel like i should be telling myself this advice right now. i keep looking back. when will i start looking at the future with the same kind of excitement and joy?
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