2.5 - random thought

i always always always used to have this feeling that i just have wayyyy too much going on in my head. this feeling usually comes when i feel overwhelmed with too many things to deal with and think about, with too little time, and too much of a desire to do it all. i satrt thinking about stuff and how things might be different, or could be different and i run circles in my head.

during these times what i want to do MOST is run away to a far away place, preferably somewhere like europe where noone knows me. and be alone. well, me and God.

i think that's what a REAL retreat is supposed to be. run away. to turn away. not like the "retreats" we are used to as sunday church goers.

yeah. i need a retreat. i just want to go backpacking in europe by myself like RIGHT NOW. i dont think ive ever done that before. i think i should someday.