desire. heart. love.

havent written in this thang in foreverrrr.

brief late night thought:

these days, ive been wrestiling with my heart, desire, love for God.

intellectually, i know God is so much more satisfying, so much more desirable than anything else in this world.

but living that truth out in my life has been difficult.

i think it boils down to a heart issue. what is it that i desire most in life? what fuels my love?

i want so much, so much, to have Jesus be my everything. that He may be all satisfying, and all sufficient for me. this, i know, He can be.

i think cs lewis said it best:

"Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased."